You were known for your vibrance A light of the world to your parents
Rays of sunshine to your friends
Perfection personified like no other
You had a heart full of love
Never was there an ill thought lurking beneath
Always cherished for your kind gestures
Indeed, I loved you for the heart you possessed
So close we were that our families became friends
You and I -- The knots bonding them like glue
Our mums became best pals
Just the way we were
We shared dreams and envisioned our future
Pictured ourselves at each others' wedding
Making Kodak moments
Living a life that one would emulate
Life was fine for us ----- till terror struck
A strange illness caught up with you
I saw you slowly fading away from me
Prayed that you would bounce back to healthy rhythm
Seeing you smile was all that mattered
I told you it would all be over
I said ''You would be well again''
It was a firm conviction within me and I believed it
So much pain and agony you endured
Still, your face never lacked that glow
You shed no tears
But I know, welts on the inside stung
A lasting grin you always saved
For the ones you held dear
They know not what you went through
No hint of the trauma behind the happy face
We all had mighty hope, we prayed for you
You astounded us with how brave you were
I never wanted to cry in your presence
For I believed this too shall pass
You were in another city getting medical attention
Called you but you were too weak to answer
With the little strength you had, you text-ed me to say
''Sorry for not being able to pick. Wish to see you soon. Love you''
I was positive I would see you again
Little did I know that the end was near
Came back from school one day
To find my mum and sisters in tears
The bombshell was dropped
I was told you had just died that morning
Never cried so hard in my life
The only thing I could say was ''God. Whyyy?''
I was a crying mess, moped around for days
My oldest friend of 13 years had been rudely snatched from me
By the cold hands of death
It wasn't fair, It wasn't fair, It still isn't fair
Sometimes I sense your presence around me
Like you are there but I can't reach out to you
Can't bring myself to delete your number and your messages
You left me too soon and I couldn't see you before you passed on
I cried hard again today
Because it is your birthday
And we should be rejoicing together
I picture myself laughing and telling you ''Yellzzz you are a big chic now ooo''
My mum still speaks highly of you
She adored you sooo much
I pick up the phone to call your mum and console her
But I can't because tears will take over my words
As I type this words, tears flop on my keyboard
But I don't care because I want to let it all out
It's a raw sting and it still hurts
There are so many things I wish I had told you
I miss your smiles, your laughter
I know that somewhere in heaven you are watching us
Your memory remains fresh
And It will always be
Forgetting you is out of the question
Its been 237 days since you left and I still miss you
I love you, my beautiful friend Shade
And I will always do